Thursday, January 21, 2010

Thankful Thursday

I'm in a weird mood. I was all but sickened yesterday after finding out something I would rather have remained ignorant about. I felt so gross because of it that I turned on some hymns for a couple hours to try to keep from blubbering in front of my kids. I don't know how to tell you what I discovered without ruining someone else's blissful ignorance or giving you that roadkill feeling of "I just have to know." I'll just say it was about abortion and leave it there. How's that?

Today, after reading just a few sentences of junk about homosexual marriage, I've come to a conclusion that I reach every so often- this world is a sick place and I'm grateful to not be a big part of it. I am so thankful to be a stay at home mom for so many reasons. One of those reasons is that I can be in and focus on creating and maintaining this place called home. A place separate from the ways of the world, where my family and I can feel safe in our beliefs and enjoy a higher spirit than we find most everywhere else. A happy place. A place full of love. A safe haven. A refuge from the storm.

Just a few weeks ago I learned that the f-bomb is dropped in civilized society more than I ever imagined and that my husband has to hear it ALL the time at work. What the heck?!

I don't want to live in a world where abortion is commonplace. I don't want to live in a world full of homosexuality and promiscuity. I don't want to live in a world where even and especially the well educated and civilized swear like sailors.

But here I am. And I'm here for a reason. I'm so grateful to be a stay at home mom and I'm able to stay away from most of the junk out there. I'm thankful for the opportunity to be my sons' most seen example, even though that responsibility is often daunting. Though evil is creeping into every crevice of society, I'm grateful that there is still so much good in the world.

Haiti was hit hard and so many are rushing to their relief. Sunshine. A little lost boy in the grocery store was seen safely to the service desk by at least five of adults. Strangers still smile at each other. The rally of friends and support given when a loved one dies. Phone calls. Thank yous.

The light of Christ still shines through so many.

What are you thankful for today?

1 comment:

The Garcia's said...

I found your blog from the comment you left on another blog, the one where you read about that abortion. I was also so sickened by that and can't believe someone would knowingly do that to a sweet growing baby. There had to be some way around it, it was her body. I am also LDS and enjoyed reading your post of how hard it is living in such a worldly world. I am a stay at home mom to 3 boys also. We lived in California for 3 years and during that time had to deal with the whole prop8 mess. All I can say is I's so happy to believe what I do and that we live back in Utah again! I will continue to follow your blog if its ok.