Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Drawing a blank

Do you ever have those days when you think (multiple times even!), "I have got to remember to blog about that," but you never remember when you actually get in front of a computer?

I do.

Like today.

Right now.

My mind is trying desperately to remember that I had something important to say and what it is...


So, I tell you something mundane that's on my mind.

Tomorrow morning we are attending our first homeschool social event. I hadn't put much thought into it and now I'm kind of feeling some trepidation about it.

I have to try to keep track of all three boys in an unfamiliar, large place on an outing that I have put almost no thought into. Not a good combination.

Wish me luck. And presence of mind enough to plan at least a little:)

Good night!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

A "what I should have said" moment

I really never even thought about this happening. Now that it has, I kind of wish it would happen again so I could say the right thing.

I was out front with the boys this evening. We were waiting for Bret and then we were going to go on an evening family walk. Perfect weather for it tonight.

Three girls came skipping up to the house and one said ever so politely, "excuse me?" I'd put them somewhere between the ages of 9 and 11.

I said, "Yes?"

Spokesgirl said, "We're trying to raise money for a charity with our school. Do you have any money?"

I said, "What's the charity?"

They all looked at each other at which point I noticed that the only thing they seemed to have with them was an unsharpened pencil instead of the usually vast amounts of fliers and forms that kids in fundraisers carry around, and then the girl who appeared to be the oldest said, "It's like a child care thing."

At which point all I could think was, "Um...weird. Please get off my lawn." And all I said was, "I don't have any cash on me. Good luck."

As they jogged off to the neighbors' house, something clicked and I thought, "Oh, no way!" I pushed it off as just an insane possibility that my pessimistic brain thought up. But as I related the story to Bret I thought that my pessimistic brain wasn't so far off. He was quite confident that such was the case.

I feel sick to my stomach about the whole thing. What kid that young comes up with such a conniving, dishonest, horrible idea?! "I need some money. I know, I'll go tell my neighbors I'm raising money for a charity." What?!

Part of me wishes I could go back and have everything click into place while they were still in front of me. Such a circumstance would open up worlds of possibilities. I could have called them on the lie right then and given them a sharp lesson in honesty before following them home to tell their parents what they'd done. I could have led them on and on in it an seen if at least one would break under the pressure of trying to create more lies before laying into them about what a despicable thing they were doing. Bret says I should have scared them with threats of calling the police.

Could-a, should-a, would-a, right?

Sadly, I really think such lessons would have fallen on deaf ears.

So. Next time some innocent looking kids come to your door asking for help with their fundraiser, make sure they're legitimate. If they can't prove it, give 'em what-fer for being so despicably dishonest.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Thankful Thursday

I love Relief Society.

I don't usually get to experience RS being that my calling most often keeps me with the little tykes during church hours.

Tonight I went to a stake RS dinner. It was delightful. There was a terrific turn out. So much so that we ran into a funny food situation. Each place had been set with a plate of food before the meeting. So many people turned up that those of us who were there a bit earlier were asked to take our food back to the kitchen so it could be redistributed in smaller portions so there would be enough for everyone. It was fun to share:)

We then had three incredible women speak inspirational and encouraging messages. There was a tear inducing musical number. A wonderful conclusion by the Stake President. It was a fantastic evening. And I almost missed it.

As late as Tuesday, I remembered that I had a RS dinner tonight. But I completely spaced it since then. A spectacular woman who works with me in the Nursery called early this evening and asked if I wanted to go with her to the dinner. Thank heaven for Sheri! Were it not for her I would have missed out on such an inspirational evening.

I am so thankful to be part of such an incredible, worldwide group of women. I am thankful that we meet often in smaller groups of wards and stakes and I can get to know the amazing women around me. I am so grateful to be a part of Relief Society!

What are you thankful for today?

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Thankful Thursday

Once again it is Thursday.

I'm especially thankful for comforts today.

Comforts like soft breezes and sunshine coming through open windows.


Pillows and blankets.

For some reason I find certain smells very comforting. Like fresh lillies, or the garden after it's just been watered, or fresh cut grass. These are smells in our home and stirring through our neighborhood today.

Sure it's tax day. And sure there's still tons of responsibility and stress in my life. But today I feel comfortable. And I like it:)

What are you thankful for today?

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Thankful Thursday of milestones

What. A. Day. Good gracious, it was all over the place!

Started out with a normal morning. And then, while I was gathering the last necessaries for an errands run, Goose took a tumble down the stairs and cut his forehead pretty darn deep. A short while later we were at Urgent Care getting stitches; a first for our family. It was not fun. But you know what? It was so much easier than I thought it would be. I even caught some glimpses of the doctor stitching and didn't feel queasy like I thought I would. Had I not be holding my terrified son down, it might even have been very interesting to watch.

Here's a tip though: if your child needs stitches, find a way to have siblings out of the room. I had Jonz and Al coloring to keep them from touching everything in the room. I didn't even think about making sure they didn't see what was going on. Poor Jonzy finished his paper lightening quick, turned around to find something new to do, and saw what the doctor was doing to his brother. He was almost as terrified as Goose. So, if your child ever needs stitches (or some small medical procedure like that) have the siblings in another room. It will save everyone in the hassle and heart-break department.

Astonishingly enough, I have much to be thankful for throughout this incident. Despite having a horridly deep head wound, Goose hardly bled at all. Thus allowing me to bandage and transport him to the doctor without having to hunt down a second adult to take us so I could keep pressure on his head. And- NO concussion! What are the odds of that? Slim, I'd say. And Goose is back to his normal, chipper, two year old defiant self.

The rest of the day played out fairly normally. As normal as can be expected with three young boys:) Emotions seemed to be all over the place for all of us today.

Jonz had his very first baseball practice this evening. It was so fun to watch. On the way back to the car, Al inhaled a cracker crumb. Much coughing, back pounding, and vomiting ensued.

Many more roller coaster emotions, dinner, and more emotions followed. Finally, we have reached bedtime and all is quiet in our house.

I'm so thankful for bedtime:) I'm thankful that my children have been so protected over the years. And even when something bad happens, like today with Goose, somehow it has all turned out okay. I'm thankful for my boys; for their spunk, smiles, and spirit. And I'm thankful to know that Heavenly Father never leaves me alone in raising them.

And I'm super grateful today that I have a healthy new nephew. Happy birthday to the little man! I can't wait to meet him!

What are you thankful for today?

Friday, April 2, 2010


Sure the last few days have been rough.

But my trials pale in comparison and the horizon is quite bright.

Today is Good Friday. Tomorrow is the first day of General Conference. And the day after that- the most wonderful day of the year! Easter is almost here:)

And this year, Easter and General Conference are on the same day.

Last year, I wondered aloud why we don't celebrate Easter as long and as big as we celebrate Christmas. I mean, what happened on Easter Sunday is the reason we celebrate what happened on Christmas day. Bret says it's just too special and sacred to celebrated like we do at Christmas (I don't remember his exact words; c'mon it was a year ago:)). I agree.

And really, I like the quiet reverence of the day. I like those waves of whole-body-joy that I get on Easter when I get the chance to pause and think, "Wow. What an amazing gift!" I have no words to really describe how awesome this holiday is and how grateful I am for my Savior and how grateful I am for my Father who sent Him. Love abounds. And it's so easy to feel at Easter time:)

He is risen.


Thursday, April 1, 2010

It's Been A Dumb Day/ Thankful Thursday

It all started when I realized what the date was today. I'm not a fan of April Fools' Day. I'd go so far as to say I think it's a stupid holiday. I'm sure it started out as something fun. Fun things happen on this "holiday." I've known some pretty good jokes to go down. I even went to dinner at some friends' house once where we ate a spaghetti dinner with all sorts of funny utensils; mine was a pizza cutter. That's fun. I could get behind a holiday like that. But it seems that most people have made it into "It's okay to lie and be a jerk Day." I read on a forum today of a guy who told his employees the company was going under and they all were going to lose their jobs. Are you kidding me? How is that funny?

Thankfully (since this is Thankful Thursday), I've never been subjected to stupid pranks like a saran wrapped toilet or salt in the sugar bowl. But for so many years I was met with "Ha ha haaaa! I can't believe you fell for that!s" and tiring of being made to feel stupid, I decided that I just won't believe a single thing I read or hear on April 1st.

I hate it.

I hate not just being able to trust that I'm being told the truth. I know most people don't mean any harm. But that doesn't make me hate the lies that flow freely all day any less, knowing that "it's all in good fun." I don't think lying is fun. Perhaps if it was only one or two people joshin' with me, I wouldn't mind so much...perhaps.

Yes, I'm sure you're thinking I should lighten up. Not in the mood to lighten up.

It was a busy day. I'm still in my pajamas and it's 10 pm. But it seems no matter how much I did, I didn't feel like I was getting anything accomplished today. But I did! I promise! Laundry, filing (which was long overdue and still only 60% completed), cooking, cleaning, figuring out home school. Oh and then there's the all important-all consuming taking care of three small children, feeding them, clothing them, cleaning up the thousands of messes they made. All while breaking up fights, tending to the one who is having a rough time breathing lately, the one who needs more intellectual stimulation than the others, the overly curious one who feels he's being neglected, and dealing with my own roller coaster hormones.

I think this would have just been a normal day, if not for the lies and hormones putting me in a bad mood and hampering my patience and the home school stuff. Everything is combining against me to make me feel overwhelmed, unappreciated, and completely unable to do everything that needs to be done.

How in the world am I supposed to do everything I need to AND educate my child????

So...back up, Lindsey. Deep breaths. Be reasonable. Everyone gets overwhelmed. Why should my life be any different. I'm not unappreciated. I know my husband is grateful for what I do. I know my kids may be often clueless to what I do, but they love me. Goose even paused in a whirlwind this evening to kiss my cheek and said, "luh oo!":) My parents and in laws appreciate the home I make and the care I take for their grandchildren. And to top it off, there's no where else God would have me be than nurturing His sons. I am capable. Very capable. I've got a good head on my shoulders. I can figure this all out.

But logic aside, I still feel this way. Why? Why do I get overwhelmed when I've got the same stuff on my plate that I do almost everyday? Why do I feel unappreciated when I know that I'm extremely appreciated? Why do I doubt that I can handle what has been put before me? Why, why, why???

I don't have an answer:/

So, I'm just going to get a Thankful list going and see where that takes me.

Things I'm thankful for today:

-My lovely warm house. It's wet and cold outside, but we've remained quite comfortable inside.
-That the city provides curbside trash and recycling pick up service and they took our trash away today.
-My crock pot, which made dinner much less of a hassle today.
-Easter and General Conference are SO close. Who can have a bad day on Easter Sunday?:)
-tap water
-sleeping children
-my dishwasher
-time with Bret (which I must get now! Lindsey out:))

What are you thankful for today?